Every news article called her a 37-year-old bipolar Buddhist musician. None of them mentioned Sandia National Laboratories. None mentioned quantum computing. None mentioned the NNSA report with her name in it, published seven months before she vanished. On October 15, 2023, Ingrid Coleen Lane disappeared in the Jemez Mountains of New Mexico. Her abandoned car was found on a remote forest road near the Valles Caldera, with a boulder through the rear window...

There is a particular kind of fear that lives in the body long after the mind has tried to reason it away. It is not the abstract fear of something that might happen. It is the residue of something that already did. For those of us who sat in the small wooden desks of Catholic school classrooms in the latter half of the twentieth century, that fear often has a very specific shape. It wears a black or white habit. It holds a ruler. And it answers to Sister.